“Alt, hvad du siger eller gør, fortæller historien om dig.”
“Everything you say or do, tells the story about you”
This past week and a little more has just not been the best for me. I feel like I have went through a war and won the war but lost the battle. So as many of you know or well will know after reading this, me and my girlfriend broke up Sunday the 18th. It was a mutual breakup but still feels kind of sad ya know, I mean we dated for 3 years and 7 months, that’s a long time. We are still friends at least 🙂 Also this week, some stuff I don’t want to mention on a here happened at home and it scared me and made me extra sad. I know even if I was at home there was really nothing I could do about the thing that scared me but still felt defenseless because I am so far away. I am having a lot of fun here at Ollerup but not being able to control things at home is hard. I have also felt like I have been annoying people rather than making them laugh like I use to, I know I’m probably not but been feeling like I have been lately :/.
My last blog was about friendship and let me tell you something, these folks are amazing. Though I feel like I am annoying a lot of times and most of them, I have found out that a lot of them truly care about me. They’ll come to my room and just check up on me or won’t let me pass them in the hallway without giving them hug. I said it a lot in my last post but I appreciate each and every one of them. Life is not always easy but having people who care makes it a bit easier at least. I am trying to get back to being happy, not as annoying Zane, but for some reason something feels strange. Like I know I have people who care here, but when I feel down I don’t want to be around anyone (even if I probably should be) because I don’t want them to feel down as well. I care for people and don’t like making people sad or letting them down even if I am down.
Today may not have been my day or week but I will have to admit I had a great time tonight. Plus I thought I should mention this so this isn’t all sad boo woo kind of post. Tonight I danced, I Zane kind of danced tonight. I was silly, I felt like myself. I felt how I felt the first time I had my first dance class. Ironically, I was dancing Swing, which is actually one of the dances that use to always aggravate me (maybe it doesn’t bother me as much because I have hip hop now 😛 ). I really didn’t want to dance tonight but one of my friends needed a partner and like I said earlier, I don’t like letting people down so there I was tonight. I learned a lesson and me and my partner made it our own. The class was fun but I also feel like we made it a tad more fun for ourselves at least. Thanks for a great class partner (if you read this).
Anyways back to my quote and for your wise words of wisdom from Zane time. Everything you say or do, tells the story about you. Most of the time we write with a pen so things are not always easily erasable, I hope you remember that. Write your story well, right now my story is at it’s grab a tissue box part, but don’t worry, one of these days it be back to not being able to stop smiling and laughing at the random things I do. I love you all and thanks for your support. A picture of Venus and Jupiter from Sunday the 25th, best I could do.