“Hjemme er hvor hjertet er”
“Home is where the heart is”
Welcome to week 4 of Ollerup. If I said I wasn’t tired I would be lying. I feel both mentally and physically exhausted. Week 3 was kind of a hard week for me. I am not sure if I am getting use to being here or not, during the week I have been like an elevator (constantly going up and down). This past week I just completely horrible and down on my luck. If something could go wrong, it felt like it would. I am not saying I or anyone should be happy 24/7 but being down sucks.
I am not sure how the other internationals feel but one minute I can be as happy as a kid who got candy or a baby with their favorite teddy but then out of nowhere it’s as if the heavens open up and pour the rain. I hear or see something and it reminds me of my family, friends, places, or even something in my past and it just brings down my mood. I can hide my feelings a lot of times but like a water bottle you’re filling up with water, it can only hold so much before it begins to overflow. I know there really isn’t much I can do about this besides constantly trying to distract myself with randomness like games, friends, or other random things like that but is constantly trying to distract yourself a good thing? I really do not think it is, but yet, I am constantly doing that.
I am constantly distracting myself with those kinds of things. Because of this I may feel down some days (okay, so I can’t smile all the time, I’m sorry), I may say something random to make myself laugh (as I constantly jokingly say, if I don’t laugh I’ll cry 😛 ), I will take pictures (seeing my current friends smile, really does help, so as the danish say appelsin 😉 ), and maybe I’ll want my alone time to think. I know no matter how long I am here I will miss my home and friends, I mean like I said at the start “home is where the heart is”. Though I will miss them, I want to live it up my time here. I want to smile at folks to make them smile, I want to say god morgen solskin (good morning sunshine) because it confuses the danes, I want to meet new people and I want to build connections with people.
Life is a funny thing sometimes. I may miss everyone like crazy and feel down one minute but as I am writing this in the living room, I am smiling. I look around and see people having a good time (playing games, talking to each other, laughing). Each of the people I have met here has changed my life, each one molds me into a new/better person. I don’t think it’s just a coincidence on who a person meets. I think these people have been put into my life for a reason. I really appreciate them!
So, I know this wasn’t the most cheery post I have written but I feel like it needed to be said. I will always miss home and when I leave here I know I’ll miss it too. Like I said before, I’m not sure what else to do besides distract myself with games and friends but I thing this is a pretty good distraction 😉 Thanks again venner (friends)!